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Quarantine and pregnant

Quarantine and pregnant  Today at 7:36 AM When  I got pregnant this year I pictured something very different I pictured hanging out with my family and doing fun stuff enjoying the summer with my boys and beach days before the new baby is born and then the pandemic hit.. it was like reality smacked everyone in the face. I was so used to waking up and having my kids on a schedule with soccer games and practice and game days not to mention waking up for school and our fave park days with friends it was a weekly thing and my kids are energizer bunnies they literally keep going and going so tiring them out with a whole day of activities honestly helped .. a lot. Not only with my kids but myself I struggle with anxiety a lot and it seriously kept my mind in check my thoughts organized and not all over the place. Fast forward to school closing down and everything being closed it was new it was sad I tried making the best of it at first yes were in this together family time i ordered activitie
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To those who just dont get it..

This is written for the husbands who don't get why they re wife is crying constantly, this is written for the daughters and sons who see mom or dad sad all the time, this is written for the friends who don't want to invite they re friend because he or she is a "Debbie Downer" . This is written for the people who say depression is for the weak and its just people feeling sorry for them selves. This is also written for the people who don't understand why anxiety "Just happens" Ive been in both shoes actually to not understanding to experiencing it and also being that person who needs to speak about it. I am that person who observes a lot since I was small , and for the past few years I see that a lot of people that suffer from anxiety or depression aren't really vocal about it reason being embarrassed or scared of what people might think or just being hush hush "feeling weak' or unfortunately those who don't acknowledge  that there

Fitness must haves that hype me up

Hey everyone!! Okay I wanted to write about what my must haves for the gym are because last time I went I noticed more women though that they had a bag or something along with them I honestly don’t use lockers at my gym I’d rather throw everything in my backpack and just go but I don’t carry a million things just a few and one starting lately is my pre workout!!! I was always so scared to try because I have heard many people tell me it’s so intense and it makes your heart race but recently my first pre workout has been from sweet sweat and it’s amazing I use half a scoop only!!! That’s all I need and I’m seriously sweating my ass off  and I’m focused and most of all there’s no crash and I feel like I kill it every time! It taste like fruit punch and goes down easy too nothing gross but within minutes after drinking  I start to feel the focus coming in, Product number two!! My waist trainer!! Ok now when I was like three to four months post baby I wore these like cray and I was exc

Brothers or enemies?

So being a mother of two is crazy but I enjoy my boys tough but they have my heart this past year I have noticed that being brothers is hard for Dallas and it makes me sad. I have always envisioned a beautiful relationship between my kids being close to each other having ones back and yes I know it’s still to early for that but it stresses me out seeing Dallas push his brother away when all Zayn wants to do is play and hug and love him, then again they are boys so maybe it’s different with males who knows?? I’m still new at this haha anywho sharing has been a big problem in the house and it’s with anything cars books food so help me a damn rug (not kidding) and it could be a form of jealousy but I’m always comparing which is a terrible thing to do I see my friends kids getting along and I feel like I’m doing something wrong what should I be doing?? Like is there a sharing method I don’t know about? Am I saying things wrong?? You have no idea the things that roll through my head when I

What inspired me to be fit

What inspired me to be fit Today at 10:50 AM I have gotten asked “how did you do it?” Or “ what do you even eat?” “When do you have the time?” So many times and honestly I make the time and I will tell you why being a mother is beautiful but along with it comes an part where it’s not always rainbow and butterflies and you turn into monster mom where you end up catching yourself in public places acting a hotness with your kid and quite honestly that stress me out .. literally. I started getting anxiety much more after I had my second child I believe it’s the birth control I’m using but then again (tmi) before I had children I had anxiety as well but there were times I was sitting on the couch and I would end up crying to my husband about fears I had and it started to bother me. I was three months post baby when I looked in the mirror and did not like what I saw with Dallas I was able to snap back so quickly (my first baby) this time was a bit harder and I thought in my head w

Life with the new baby and toddler

I know its been a while since I have posted anything lifes been a little crazy since officially being a mother of two kids now. Its still so weird saying that like.."I have two kids" anyways Zayn will be three months on the fifth and honestly I am so blessed he is the most calm and happiest baby I have ever met and he is making this new baby experience so easy its like I'm a pro now seriously has been so fun and something different that I have talked about in my last blog is that with Zayn I am nursing and I love that hes so obsessed with me sounds so weird but hes all about mama and I am loving it my oldest was obsessed with his Dad so I'm pretty much grateful for this experience and so far so awesome!! I don't know if you remember me also talking about my other baby my crazy one my energetic loveable sour patch kid Dallas he is learning to love his brother everyday and to him I could only imagine how this experience has been for him I mean from his point

The day I became a mother of two

December 5,2017 is the day my life changed ..again but in so many different ways this whole pregnancy was a little harder for me not medically but because I literally was chasing after a toddler the whole time and not just some normal toddler this is Dallas ..come on so I was on my feet the whole time which was a good thing considering I didn't get super huge like I did the first time around and he kept me pretty active and I took advantage of all the sleeping in and nap times because I was mentally preparing for the sleepless nights but other than that everything ran pretty smoothly I wasn't able to blog toward the end only because we had so much family over visiting from out of state just to be here for the baby shower t was honestly amazing and my mother in law threw me such a beautiful party my husband and I are truly so blessed and our baby was so spoiled with love. As the due date started getting close I felt myself getting nervous not for a new baby coming because I